I have not blogged in a long time and I have a very good reason. My mom passed away in February from her long battle with cancer; I was distraught. I tried my best not to question God but I tell you it is difficult when you hurt. My mom fought hard and I know she is not in pain anymore because she is with God and other family members. So I feel better about that part but it is still difficult.
Anyway, I am OK now but the last couple of months were terrible. I had several questions for God.
1. Why would He move me to a city where I do not have a strong support system?
2. Why couldn't He find it in his power to let my mom live just one more week so she could have seen Kelly?
3. Why would He leave me so alone?
Anyway, I am OK now but the last couple of months were terrible. I had several questions for God.
1. Why would He move me to a city where I do not have a strong support system?
2. Why couldn't He find it in his power to let my mom live just one more week so she could have seen Kelly?
3. Why would He leave me so alone?
I then realized that I could not question Him because He has blessed me tremendously with the following:
1. He allowed my husband to find a wonderful job in a great city so that I could spend the last two years with my mom.
2. He took my mom before Kelly's birth because he knew that I would divert my time to Kelly and not think about her death as much.
3. I am not alone. Even though I have small family (grandma-92 yrs old, sister, aunt, and uncle) I am not alone. My husband and I found a wonderful church and they are our extended family.
2. He took my mom before Kelly's birth because he knew that I would divert my time to Kelly and not think about her death as much.
3. I am not alone. Even though I have small family (grandma-92 yrs old, sister, aunt, and uncle) I am not alone. My husband and I found a wonderful church and they are our extended family.
Well, that is not all! I also went into labor in MS at my mom's funeral. Talk about a shock!! My husband and I tried to make it back to AL but God had another plan. I was so nervous to deliver in MS but the doctors took really good care of me. Well, I was not that nervous because I went to undergrad in that city so I knew everything but it is not the same.
Other than that, like that wasn't enough, Amy is growing so fast. She received an academic award at school, she is in swim lessons, and she will start camp in a couple of weeks. The only problem I have with her is she gets so excited about things so we are trying to work on that but overall she is doing great. I thought I would include a couple of pics as well; especially one of my mom. I will try to keep my blog going this time so please return to read more.
Other than that, like that wasn't enough, Amy is growing so fast. She received an academic award at school, she is in swim lessons, and she will start camp in a couple of weeks. The only problem I have with her is she gets so excited about things so we are trying to work on that but overall she is doing great. I thought I would include a couple of pics as well; especially one of my mom. I will try to keep my blog going this time so please return to read more.
I found your blog by way of Katie's Keepers. I'm so sorry for the loss of your Mom. What a beautiful picture of her. God Bless You!
ReplyDeleteI was so glad to see your comment on my blog. Jeff said he actually met you in the lobby of the Dr.'s office I think.
ReplyDeleteI realize that I am reading this so late.I just hated to see this about your Mom! Bless your heart. I can only imagine the questions you have for God, but you know what- He has a plan for us that we just aren't privy to sometimes! I hope He is granting you peace as you deal with all of these questions. I'll be praying for you!